If you could open up my head, un screw it and undo the seams you would find a mess of thoughts. Swirling about my mind. Undo the hinges that hold together my composure and find a small girl who is really terrified of what is looming in the future. You would see a girl cowardly trying to hide away from the world. On the outside you see a girl trying to hold it together, acting like she can handle anything, helping people deal with their fears and giving advice when in reality the person who needs to listen to that advice the most is herself. Dealing with others problems is a way to escape hers. You would find that she's scared. Really scared of what the future holds. You will see that she wonders if she will be okay, will she be good enough? will she be strong enough?
If you could open up my mind. You would discover what goes through my mind, 24/7. You would find a person trying to keep up with everyone's expectations. Trying to push her limits without going crazy. Someone trying to keep sane with the rapid pace of their life.
If you could open up my head, unscrew it and undo the seams you would find the real me.
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